Someone I am is waiting for my courage (forgotten_aria) wrote,
Someone I am is waiting for my courage


So the sticks passed inspection by my teacher, but they made my hands sore, I think because they are too small and I should perhaps make larger ones. he stared at the kanji, but didn't say anything. I'm not sure if it's because he couldn't read it (because I botched it or whatever).

I'm left with a vague unsatisified feeling, like disappointed someone and that the class went by so fast and I had such trouble with the song. It might be party due to me missing set up, which I actively look forward to, for some strange reason.

He asked us to think about what we felt. Everyone gave these answers about feeling medititive and engery, and leaving hte world behind, which I feel a little of, but I gave this lame answer about worring about all the things I'm doing wrong, and then being happy after the fact, but during I'm stressed and frustrated. It makes me wonder if I'm too cerebral. I think this is the most likely reason for my feeling that I disappointed someone.

I worry this might be the first step of, like every hobby I've had, the souring that comes from my over anxious sense to please and preform well.

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