My stupid animal brain looks a the asus and says "you won it! it's special! KEEP! KEEP! KEEP!" but it would be better used in the hands of my mother. I hate that I'm sad to give it up for no other reason than some childish part of my brain that won't shut up. That wants her toy. That wants her prize. I don't think of my self as a selfish person, so it's really annoying to have to fight with that selfish core so openly. How often does it influence me when I don't notice?