Someone I am is waiting for my courage (forgotten_aria) wrote,
Someone I am is waiting for my courage
forgotten_aria

Omphaloskepsis


I'm starting to get cold feet with the whole house thing. It worried me a bit, because I believe I started the crusade with legitiment reasons which haven't gone away. I have improved some little things in the house (like the extra kitchen cabinets but the major problems (lack of closet space, lack of shop space, poor insulation, etc.) are still there. I have a good feeling for the current market and at least a guess at what our house is worth, so if I started this crusade again in a year or two, that effort would have to be duplicated.

But, the fear, cost and effort of moving are starting to catch up with me. That and the things I would have to do to get the house in sellable condition (some of which I don't want done until we know we're going to sell.) And the uncertainty of the market. The condo across from us has been on the market for 230 days, if zillow is to be beleived (the listing for it on other sides seems to be a bit borked.) Though they're asking about what we plan to ask (a little lower) for much less space and a condo (which I assume goes for less than a whole house, but I'm not sure.)

Even though I haven't used the T in forever, it's still nice to be near Davis and Porter and I would miss my bi-weekly lunches with Jer (which is a tradition I should start with more of my friends0 and my trips in car with my taiko car pool. And really, this is a good house. It has problems, sure, but we were extremely lucky to get it when we did and it serves us well enough, and really, it's my house.

The cold feet started when I realized I wanted a house that looked unassuming on the outside but amazing on the inside, and I think that's because I don't feel like the type of person to own one of those amazing looking mansion-oid houses. Specifically the house I have a viewing of tomororw:



my brain says that people who wear t-shirts everyday don't live in a house like that. That the neighbors would scoff at my "practical" car. The house itself is an amazing deal and I firmly beleive that it would be a wonderful investment, but fro the same reasons that's true, I think I would feel like an intruder where I'd gotten a house for ~$150k less than anything else on the block and $560k less than some of the things on the block.

So how much of my fear is the effort to move and how much of it is my fear that this is the house i belong in. It's a solid, but inelegant house, with no style, unity or perfection, but that's what I am.
Tags: house hunting, navel gazing
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