But the thing I'm finding frustration is that, even though the ultimate goal is to make yourself a better person so you can create happiness for all beings, they seem to emphasis that before you can do that, you must believe in karmic law and reincarnation. They seem to feel logic support it, but that logic is still lost on me. The logic, as explained when I ask, seems circular. You suffer because karmic law says in past life you created a non-virtue and past lives must exist because without it karmic law can't make sense. I also find the motivation of creating virtue so that YOU personally won't be reincarnated as a lower being being rather self-centric. Now, they do believe that you should take care of yourself, so that might be a branch of that, but I feel like just wanting the world to be a better place should be motivation enough and that my motivation for believing the rest should be good enough and that I don't need "becoming an enlightened being in a future life" to be the only reason and motivation for trying to create more happiness in the world for myself and for others. That doesn't make logical sense to me. If I'm motivated to make the net happiness better, shouldn't that be enough of a place to start? I'm only frustrated because so much seems useful, but I feel like I'm not welcome to follow the path unless I change my beliefs for something that is proclaiming it is based on logic. I will continue to learn, since I'm still welcome to do that, and continue to cultivate my new outlook, since it is benefiting me, but I think I am not cut out to be a full Buddhist.
While struggling with this, some other thoughts come to mind. Our lack of memory of past lives is not evidence they do not exist, since most of us don't have memories before the age of 4 or so, which we have a lot of evidence we existed before our memories begin.