Someone I am is waiting for my courage (forgotten_aria) wrote,
Someone I am is waiting for my courage

ticking away

I'm watching time slip away. I'm not sure if it's fear or just indecision or something else that's keeping me from doing things. I have some inspirations and some projects, but I am not acting on them. I even know I'm suffering from that, and doing things like not buying the ceiling fan I know I won't get around to installing.

I want to make music. But I haven't sat down and started playing with any ideas in reality. (I got some dulcimer hammers and I'm playing around with playing the harp with them. It sounds quite neat.)

I got a new phone, but haven't quite finished setting it up so I can switch over.

The house is a mess and needs much cleaning.

I think I am a little scared to start programming because I know how daunting that will be and I want to make sure I'm ready to give it some decent focus so I can get over the initial hump and get something I can play with.

On the other hand, I got a NAS and I love it and I got it working with a whole bunch of things.

On another another hand, I'm kind of enjoying the rest except for the mental nagging that I want to be productive at SOMETHING.

I'm glad that I found a TKD school so I have some outside structure.
Tags: wasting time

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