Recently my TKD master asked me what my physical goals were. I don't want to have physical goals. I want to take each step forward as best I can. Physical goals for me just lead to disappointment. He even talked about him visualizing succeeding to succeed, but after being disappointed that I shouldn't get my black belt this year, I kind of feel like having goals rather than directions* for me continues to be a bad idea. Visualizing that did jack. I almost feel like winners can visualize because they are winners, not that they are winners because they visualize.

I have been wondering if he was thinking I would say something about a weight goal. But losing weight, while would be really wonderful for many many reasons, cannot be a goal for me. I know what it takes for me to lose weight and I know that if I do, i just rebound and gain it all back. I know that it makes me feel horrible and cranky. I know that I am burnt out on counting calories. I need to make changes in my life that I can in theory make permanent and being at a significant calorie deficit is not something I can sustain.

I've been wondering if it's worth me sitting down with him and chatting with him about it, possibly with some choice research in hand.

* By this I mean a goal is "run 1.5 miles in 18 minutes" where as a direction is "run more regularly so you get in better shape and improve your running stamina."


Completely unrelated, here's a quick handpan video. Just felt like making it.